let it go, let it go

don't worry, this post isn't going to be about the movie frozen. 
but now you have the song stuck in your head like I do, don't cha?

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I'll be the first to admit that I have a really hard time with this one. I'm not the type of person that can easily move on. I tend to take things personally and need my 'grieving period', I guess you could call it. I need time to get over things before I can really move on. Letting go doesn't come easily for me. 

Vince, on the other hand, is great at not letting things get to him. He can get into a disagreement or fight with someone and then easily switch to casual, cheerful conversation. This always amazes me and is something I truly admire about him. I'm honestly not blessed with this attribute. 

There have been a couple of situations recently in which I wish I could just move on from it and let it go. But I feel like I have been pretty hurt by these things and the thought of just sweeping it under the rug is really hard for me to wrap my head around. 

At the end of the day I know that there are certain things that aren't terribly important and family should come first. But what really bothers me is when I try so hard to make a situation better and the other person does nothing to reciprocate. Instead, I feel like matters only get worse and feelings get hurt. It's times like this that I have a hard time letting go and moving on. 

I realize I am being terribly vague here. And as of right now none of our family is even remotely aware of this blog. But I would hate for them to find it one day and read about something so petty and little. And usually the majority of these disagreements that I am referring to, are just that. Petty and little. Yet for one reason or another I have a hard time recognizing that in the moment. 

I know this is something I need to work harder at. Because I know that when I do move on I end up much happier. 

Last year I read a book by Gabrielle Bernstein called Spirit Junkie and it was such an eye opener. The book is all about self love and letting go of fear (in any sense of the term). I think a lot of the reason I have such a hard time letting go of situations is because I focus too much on receiving love from others and when we get in disagreements I worry about the damage it causes in our relationship. No matter how big or how small. But really, what will fill me up much fuller is self love. What I have learned is that once you love yourself, you are able to accept and receive love from others. This doesn't have to apply to just significant others but also to family, friends, peers... Anyone and everyone!

I know I have a lot of work to do. And learning to let go is a challenge for me. But I know that by letting go, accepting love, and by loving myself, I will be able to enjoy and relish in the relationships that I have and worry less about every little detail.

Do you have self love? Are you able to let go or are you good at moving on? 

Linking up with Annie & Natalie this week during Thoughts for Thursday.